Three weeks ago I went to a club on my own and I wanted to go there again - tonight I finally did.
After the first time going there, I was a bit afraid of it being a one-time thing - maybe I was just lucky… but I didn’t want to believe that.
Tonight I finally went there again, after thinking about it all week:3
And again, it went great \^_^/
I went there a few hours after it started to avoid a long line - the people in the line gave of a bit of a worried vibe, and it made me a bit anxious… but I’ve just put on my headphones and was just myself - vibing to the music, waiting in line to dance.
… I wore a crop top this time I got it last week, and it felt so cool wearing it at home… but it made me super self-conscious on the way to the club… it always moved up a bit too much(even though I tried to tie it down with cool rose shoelaces UwU) … but since it’s a leftists club, it’s not that uncommon to have people wearing black jackets(classical preconception of radical leftist, lol)… so I’ve pulled up the zipper a bit, yeahi. Worst case I would just keep my jacket on…
So I just stood in line… vibing… and being a bit intimidated by the - presumably cool and experienced - people in front of me… and funny enough, they got a classic “Sorry guys, not today” from the bouncer. Unexpected… but somehow not really… ?!
I took of my headphones - “hi!(:” - “Yes, I’ve been here before” - again, the bouncer told me what to do if I feel unsafe… I don’t know… maybe that’s normal? I’ve not had been to clubs for a long time… but it felt nice.
This time it took me only a few minutes to get into the mood of just dancing without caring about anyone else:3
I’ve even taken of my jacket and just danced in my crop top - it felt so good.
BUT. So. One lesson learned:
Don’t use tape to tuck when going to a club. lol.
My pants were a bit too tight… I had to stand instead of having the conform of sitting down like at home… and the tape created a weird… stream?:/…
long story short: my pants got wet… lol.
luckily the toilets of the club are so chill that could take my time to breath and think without getting a panic attack lol.
I’ve been there two hours already, It was after 4 am already… so I just pulled down my jacked and went home 😄🙈
great night. One L, a few W’s - I’m back home before 6am and got stuff to eat.
10/10 trans experience💕🏳️⚧️
