NOTE

This post is backdated to place it somewhat correctly in the timeline.

Let me preface this by saying that we all know alcohol can be a hell of a problem, especially for people like us, who are trying to overcome dark moments in life…

… somewhere after the initial phase of realizing that I might not be as cis as I thought I was, I went through a long season of drunken Friday nights. That’s when I allowed myself to learn things about myself that I was afraid of.
I basically lived the The vaccine made me trans, and now I’m Drunk in the bathroom messing with my skirt meme.

I learned a lot, and luckily it got to a point where I realized I shouldn’t be too hard on the body I’d just learned to like.
Anyway, stories for another time:3

This past summer, I realized I didn’t need to be wasted to be myself. I slowly started wearing things in public that I’d only worn in secrecy before.
But some things took way too much courage - like wearing a cute necklace or taking out the rose purse I liked too much to leave unused.

And I realized that one beer to relax after work was enough to overcome the cringe and just pull money out of my purse to pay. It just so happens that the purse is rose-colored because I like it.

One important observation is that simply being drunk af doesn’t help. You and I both know that, I guess. But it’s important to remember because it also means that simply chugging tons of alcohol doesn’t help either.

Being wasted and trying these things probably has the opposite effect. The key is that both parties in these situations need to feel like I’m just me, maybe a bit awkward, but not just some wasted weirdo doing weird stuff.

It somehow helped so much. Especially with people in stores that I might see again in daylight.
Because they already saw me like that, and I didn’t care at the time - so when they see me again, it’s not even a surprise for either of us.

Flawless logic used to my advantage. It must be. Because it actually works

<3